kowtable kowts...

" no one falls in love by choice,
it is by chance, no one falls in love by chance, it is by work,and no one falls out of love by chance, it is by choice."

" distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there, but whenever
i start feeling sad because i miss you,i remind myself how lucky i am to have someone special to miss."

" the best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched, they must be felt with the heart."

" knowing is better than wondering, waking is better than sleeping, even the biggest failure beat the hell out of never trying, so take chances, because you never know how amazing something can turn out to be."

" it does'nt matter what you mean to the world, but what matters is that you mean the world to me."

" meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was completely out of control."

" sometimes we search so much for the right choices, right paths to walk through, right time, right person, but life isn't about searching for things that can be found, it is about letting the unexpected to happen and finding things you never searched for."

" touch my heart and you'll feel, listen to my heart and you'll hear, look into my heart and you'll see that you'll always be a special part of me."

" laugh your heart out, dance in the rain, cherish the moment, and ignore the pain, live, laugh, love, forgive and forget, because life is too short to live with regret."

" love comes in different packages, each has its own meaning, its own story, and its own ending, love makes us giggle, makes us cry, love is sweet and painful but that's how it is."

"happiness is not having what you want, its wanting what you have."

" never blame a mistake,never deny your mistake, face it strong, and you will learn more credits in respect."

" be careful of the choices you make, because some choices, we make in vain, and we can never change them or make it right, we have to live the rest of our lives wondering why? everything you do changes your life in someway, so choose wisely."

" the best things come from nowhere, and have no high expectations, they just happen and no words can explain it, we don't know why or how it happened. all we know is that it happened for a reason, and we need to cherish it and not let slip away."

" if i could give you one gift, i would give you tha ability to to see yourself as i see you, so you could see how truly special you are."

love isn't about sex, pleasure or lust. love is about passion, trust and honesty, it does'nt come cheap. love cannot be bought. love is about the heart and soul."

to be happy, does'nt do whatever you like, instead, like whatever you do. happiness comes not from having too much to live on but having much to live for."

" never grieve about the past, for it does not belong in your memory now. treasure the beautiful things you have and those people around you."

" make-up hides the imperfections upon ones face, unfortunately there is no cover up for the impurities in our hearts."

" when you love, expect first the pain you might handle, rather than expecting happiness, but you're not even sure that you're loving someone who can love you back."

" love can make you blind, yet it can open-up your eyes in so many ways."

" love is like a book, you will never know what will happen to you and your love in the next page, and sometimes you turn to a page full of sadness but once you turn to the last page it may end with something beautiful."

the greatest challenge in life is to find someone who knows all your flaws, differences, and mistakes and yet still sees the best in you."

" the greatest thing in life is finding who knows all of your mistakes and weaknesses, and still finds you completely amazing."

I Am

I am ...
A woman
With a full heart, hidden
Somewhere in an empty room ...
With eyes not quite of autumn's gold, and yet
Neither all of summer's green;
I wonder ...
If love is a tale made for children --
A granting of sweet dreams in their innocence --
A honey-coating to help their throats
Choke down the bitter draught ...
I hear ...
A voice that whispers warnings, half-formed,
Bodiless as hope, until I swear I cannot draw
Another breath unless this spectre be unmasked,
His lies mangled �neath my righteous tread;
I see ...
A woman, proud, uncompromising,
Diaphanous as air -- less, even, than the tears
That fall in desolation about her weary feet,
Salt poison pooled upon the withered ground ...
I want ...
A measure of quietude, a certain silence,
The echo of alone which heals me of dreaming,
The nothing that stills the wanting,
The numb, the cold that laughs at pain;
I am
A woman,
hidden ...

I pretend ...
That I can live forever -- that Time
Has no puissance but that which I afford Him --
And so, I can wait, I can be happy tomorrow,
Sleep is for the dead; but its ghosts haunt my waking ...
I feel ...
Too much -- too deeply to be directionless,
Too real for imagining, and yet the familiar eyes
Hold nothing of recognition -- only my reflection --
A meeting of shadows in sunlit glass;
I touch ...
The downy wings of hope, in wonder,
In reverence, in need, in hunger;
Alas, it burns my fingers as a flame,
A sacrilege, self-defined ...
I worry ...
That I am alone; that in my longing
I have forsaken all -- but oh, what reward,
What smile divine should light the path to freedom --
And how can I but heed the siren's call?
I cry ...
For having too much, for fear of bursting,
And then, when by the pouring of my soul
I lie, a vessel emptied, I cry again
For what was had, and lost;
I am
A woman,
empty ...

I understand
That life is what you make it,
That sometimes, the coat of many colors
That marks your triumphs brightly, blends only
To loneliest of grey ...
I say
That we are made by life, shaped,
Broken, perhaps -- unmade and voided --
But always, the core of us remains, waiting
With only faith, with trust, to be reborn;
I dream
Of bluest waters, reaching
With unnatural hands toward the faded sky,
Of dolphins that wander in seas without limits,
Carrying me water-breathing past corals and clouds ...
I try ...
To lead by example, knowing
That merely the telling holds no power;
A gift of giving is merely a day, while
A gift of knowing spans forever;
I hope ...
That my darkness holds you gently,
That pain is halved by sharing, that feeling
Wields nothing past the words it summons,
Except that it touch you with only healing ...
I am
A woman,
only.

Have You Ever

Have you ever felt,
the cold and lifeless hand of an infant,
gazed into their unblinking eyes,
and observed the face of death,
when masked in bittersweet innocence?

Have you ever touched your dreams,
and felt the simplistic joy,
of feeling them become reality,
only to abandon them,
for reasons you cannot explain?

Have you ever watched your family,
who once shared the greatest of loves,
suffer an unforgettable and unforgivable tragedy,
that will slowly, painfully, and inevitably,
tear them all apart?

Do you know, firsthand,
the evil that resides deep within the heart of every man,
every woman, and every child?
Have you seen its face as it randomly seeks,
a soul to torment and destroy?

Do you know the darker side of life,
the one that awakens you,
in the still of the night,
crying to the unknowable God's,
�Save me from myself. '?

Does your heart constantly question,
whether humanity is obtainable,
in a world corrupted with suffering,
and where war,
is the favoured solution for peace?

If you really want to know me,
and understand the forces that compel me to move on,
then take these questions,
and take this pain,
for this who I am.

New Life

I've been sitting around this life for years,
Not enough laughs and too many tears.
Trying to figure out where it all went,
These wasted years that I have spent.

Searching for something to go beyond,
Life's a stone skipping across a pond.
At the last skip, it hits with a splash,
Down the stone sinks, gone in a flash.

Pushing and pulling, it's tearing apart,
Poking and prodding an underused heart.
This dark velvet curtain that hides my soul,
Living this life has taken it's toll.

In a flash of bright light, the curtain is torn,
Tumbling down all tattered and worn.
Revealing new life, a child within,
Born free of hate, of suffering and sin.

Now my eyes see what has never been told,
Striving forth happy, confident and bold.
Into a world that's unfamiliar but friendly,
Into this new life my spirit will send me.

Living and laughing, loving it all,
I stood myself up and answered the call.
The darkness has gone, replaced by the light,
I gave up the darkness with hardly a fight.

I've been sitting around this life for years,
With laughter aplenty and hardly a tear.
Now I can see just where it all went,
Cherish every moment of this new life I've spent.

Leaving

On a day like today,
a young lady arrived
at the airport,
with family
and friends.

Her heart was heavy,
and she was sad.
For she knew the time
has come to leave
this Heaven and
return to the
far lonely
world
elsewhere.

Unsettling feeling
in her heart,
a kind of longing
to stay back forever.
A kind of familiar loneliness
that she was acquainted with,
comes to her again.

And she sighed,
wistfully, forlornly,
hoping again hope,
to stay in this limbo
of joy and
belonging
forever.

'Oh no, I'm leaving again',
she murmured,
hot tears threatening
to well in her eyes.

Bravely, she forced
a smile at her
loved ones.
Without much of
a second look,
she bid them
farewell.

In the plane,
the girl sat,
with eyes closed,
reliving those
wonderful
and fond
memories
she left behind,

and those sweet voices
and carefree laughter
that accompanied
every single image
that went fleeting pass.

Unconsciously,
a faint smile ghosted at her mouth.

'I'll see them again soon.
Take care, my loved ones,
I'll be back.'

Most Beautiful Woman In The World

She has no special talent
No special beauty mark
No invention with a patent
No voice of a comely lark

No hourglass physique
No sunbeam likened smile
No lingering mystique
No manicured nails to file

But what she had she flaunted
With the style of a fur- lined stole
With the chic of a runway model
She flashed her beautiful soul

Within Me

Scarlet lips as red as a rose,
perfect hips in a seductive pose.
On the outside this is what I may be,
but what about looking at the heart within me.

Long black hair, surrounding my face,
baby blue eyes and full of grace.
This is what most men chase,
but my soul and feeling cannot be erased.

Long, untouched legs with a snug fitting skirt,
a short and sexy tube top shirt,
I take my looks with little pride,
for what I care about is what's inside.

They say that these looks are a sensation,
that I am one of God's best creations,
But all I really want is for you to see,
all the good that is within me.

The Mask..

A mask of plastic happiness often covers her sadness

Her beliefs hidden from most

Afraid of, but willing to face the unknown

Wondering where her place is in this life

She has come close to sharing herself

Never completely revealing anything to anyone

Feelings of invisible chains corner her

When she dreams, reality shatters before her very eyes

Accomplishments she strives for just at hands grasp

She feels lost sometimes, not yet finding her notch in this world
At times the glimmer in her calm eyes slowly disappears

But within her heart a silent flame burns her inside and out

She roams day by day, playing roles

Strength unknowingly resides in her

History repeats itself once again

The translucent veil she so proudly wears

Little by little answers will come, pushing it aside

One day there will be no more mask for her to wear

One day her beliefs will be known

One day she'll know her place in this life

One day she will share herself

ONE DAY this mask will be NO MORE